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clodia_risa) wrote2006-11-10 08:25 pm
clodia_risa) wrote2006-11-10 08:25 pm
Last night was good
I came home from work, bought The Gunslinger, ate sushi, watched an episode of Death Note, and then Gundam Wing, spent time with my one friend in town, and with Matt.
Today, I finished The Gunslinger (revised edition), and have decided that I could be perfectly happy with just reading that one book, and not finishing the series. It had a perfect blend of wistfulness, realism, and despair. Foreshadowing and now-ness. It was a wonderful book, and I do not need to read the rest of the series to have enjoyed that one as much as I just did.
But I want to read the rest of it. And then I want to find the tendrils that I know are hidden in the other books, Insomnia, The Stand, and the other ones that I do not know about yet, and read and enjoy those too.
It was a very good book.
It occured to me, as I was reading about the Tower, and thinking about meta (because what else was I to do after reading![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
agonistes journal so much), that one of the reasons that I, and perhaps others but I do not speak for them, like reading fiction so much is that it is an affirmation of our life. If the Tower is at the center and is the nexus of everything, and if there is someone in the Tower, then I expect (not canonically) that person to be reading. The person is the audience. By reading so many books we are our own nexus, our own center to so many universes. We affirm their existance. As one who does not believe in a god, or in a afterlife, I know that what I want most in life is someone to affirm my existance. To decide that it is important, important enough to know, to care.
I know that unless I want to fall into the belief of an audience, a god, a watcher, a reader, I must learn to affirm myself.
Today, I finished The Gunslinger (revised edition), and have decided that I could be perfectly happy with just reading that one book, and not finishing the series. It had a perfect blend of wistfulness, realism, and despair. Foreshadowing and now-ness. It was a wonderful book, and I do not need to read the rest of the series to have enjoyed that one as much as I just did.
But I want to read the rest of it. And then I want to find the tendrils that I know are hidden in the other books, Insomnia, The Stand, and the other ones that I do not know about yet, and read and enjoy those too.
It was a very good book.
It occured to me, as I was reading about the Tower, and thinking about meta (because what else was I to do after reading
agonistes journal so much), that one of the reasons that I, and perhaps others but I do not speak for them, like reading fiction so much is that it is an affirmation of our life. If the Tower is at the center and is the nexus of everything, and if there is someone in the Tower, then I expect (not canonically) that person to be reading. The person is the audience. By reading so many books we are our own nexus, our own center to so many universes. We affirm their existance. As one who does not believe in a god, or in a afterlife, I know that what I want most in life is someone to affirm my existance. To decide that it is important, important enough to know, to care. I know that unless I want to fall into the belief of an audience, a god, a watcher, a reader, I must learn to affirm myself.