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clodia_risa) wrote2003-11-13 09:54 pm
clodia_risa) wrote2003-11-13 09:54 pm
A rant...whatever....
My warcry is....
"I'm going to fuck you with such reckless abandon, you'll reincarnate as an X-file!!
Huh...I wish. I would feel better. Being sick sucks. Being depressed sucks. Being worried about people sucks. Having papers sucks. Oh wait...most everything sucks. The only thing that doesn't suck is people...well...certain people...only a few. My vinco is one. He always takes care of me, and he doesn't reallytotallytruly get jealous of other people stealing time from him.
My roommate doesn't suck. This is the longest I've lived with someone is the same room and still not hated her. We also had a talk today about us and about my friends. She was straight up with me about stuff. I like it when people are. She wasn't cruel, just to the point.
I like morgan_wolf. I am worried about her. She's been through a lot lately, and more, I fear, than any sane person can handle. Good thing no one I know is sane.
I'm addicted to College Roomies from Hell (crfh.net). It rocks my world so much! Dave/Margaret forever!
I like people that tell me the truth no matter what. It will hurt me. I will get over it. Just tell me straight off if there is a problem.
A certain male who lives in Scotland sucks.
People who upset my friends anger me. Including me.
This is just a random rant against the universe I think. I've just been reading CRFH for a while now. To escape? I need escape. I need escape from all of this. I can't wait until I leave tomorrow. I don't want to have to be strong and perfect for everyone. I don't want to be anyone for anyone. I want to see my vinco, my Matt, I just want to be held, and don't do anything. I just want to not have to talk and take care of anyone. I just want to be in myself, know that someone can accept that and just hold me, take care of me.\
Sigh...man...anyone reading this will think I'm utterly depressed. I'm not. I'm utterly frustrated. And I don't want pity. I don't want anything. I just want to be me, and to post this, and for people to accept this as me, and not feel like they need to change anything or be insulted or anything else.
So I'm putting this up publicly. I'll be interested to see if anyone reads/posts. And if there are any...awwwI'm sorry you're feeling bad...just skip it.
Yes I sound bitter. Yes I am bitter! And I'm proud of it. I have to be proud of me, or what can I do?
So anyway...after this either extremely boring or fascinating post, I think I'm done. So whatever...go along your way. Have a good day everyone. Seriously.
"I'm going to fuck you with such reckless abandon, you'll reincarnate as an X-file!!
Huh...I wish. I would feel better. Being sick sucks. Being depressed sucks. Being worried about people sucks. Having papers sucks. Oh wait...most everything sucks. The only thing that doesn't suck is people...well...certain people...only a few. My vinco is one. He always takes care of me, and he doesn't reallytotallytruly get jealous of other people stealing time from him.
My roommate doesn't suck. This is the longest I've lived with someone is the same room and still not hated her. We also had a talk today about us and about my friends. She was straight up with me about stuff. I like it when people are. She wasn't cruel, just to the point.
I like morgan_wolf. I am worried about her. She's been through a lot lately, and more, I fear, than any sane person can handle. Good thing no one I know is sane.
I'm addicted to College Roomies from Hell (crfh.net). It rocks my world so much! Dave/Margaret forever!
I like people that tell me the truth no matter what. It will hurt me. I will get over it. Just tell me straight off if there is a problem.
A certain male who lives in Scotland sucks.
People who upset my friends anger me. Including me.
This is just a random rant against the universe I think. I've just been reading CRFH for a while now. To escape? I need escape. I need escape from all of this. I can't wait until I leave tomorrow. I don't want to have to be strong and perfect for everyone. I don't want to be anyone for anyone. I want to see my vinco, my Matt, I just want to be held, and don't do anything. I just want to not have to talk and take care of anyone. I just want to be in myself, know that someone can accept that and just hold me, take care of me.\
Sigh...man...anyone reading this will think I'm utterly depressed. I'm not. I'm utterly frustrated. And I don't want pity. I don't want anything. I just want to be me, and to post this, and for people to accept this as me, and not feel like they need to change anything or be insulted or anything else.
So I'm putting this up publicly. I'll be interested to see if anyone reads/posts. And if there are any...awwwI'm sorry you're feeling bad...just skip it.
Yes I sound bitter. Yes I am bitter! And I'm proud of it. I have to be proud of me, or what can I do?
So anyway...after this either extremely boring or fascinating post, I think I'm done. So whatever...go along your way. Have a good day everyone. Seriously.
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